March 27, 2014
It's a crippling thing.
Growing up I was always painfully shy. I was also fearful of many things. It's a part of me that I've never really liked about myself.
As I got older….somewhere around high school, I started to come out of my shell a little bit but fear always (and still does) kept me from doing things I know I would (have) enjoyed.
Before I had kids, I constantly told myself that I wanted to raise my kids to be fearless….discerning but fearless. I never want my kids to miss out on opportunities and experiences because of fear. In order to do this, I know I will eventually have to overcome some of my own fears. Lead by example, right?
Tensley has always been the fearless one of the two girls. She's actually a little too fearless for me…because of this I'm praying that she learns discernment quickly.
Tillie, AKA "I too scared" Tillie is afraid of everything. Leaves blowing in the wind, caution tape on the staircase, unidentified objects on the ground, big slides, being spun around while being held are just a few things that she claims to be afraid of. She loves the idea of doing things but when it comes to actually doing them, she will back off and say, "No, I too scared!"
But today? Today was different. I took them to a park today. A reward for being somewhat patient while I met with contractors at the house. Today, Tillie got brave.
Tillie loves to slide but it takes her a while to warm up to the bigger or twisty slides. After a few trips down the little slides, she finally worked her way to the bigger slide and then when I wasn't looking she flew down one of the twisty slides!
She watched her sister climb up the ladder things (with me spotting her, of course) that go up to the open spaces on the playground equipment (which I affectionately call death drops) a few times and lo and behold she decided she wanted to try it too! I asked her if she was sure and when she insisted I started coaching her up the ladder.
Now let me tell you about this ladder because I didn't get a picture of the whole thing. This ladder is curved so it takes some skill and critical thinking (especially if you're a 2 year old) to climb it. They way Tensley figured out how to climb it was impressive. She started by climbing it like a typical ladder but once she got to the curve, she stood straight up and walked onto the platform. Honestly, I'm not sure I would have thought to do it that way (I sometimes suck at problem solving….don't even get me started on word problems.)
Anyway, I coached Tillie up this ladder and my poor sweet brave girl was scared to death. She even cried out for me to hold her. I kept telling her she was doing a great job and that I would not let her fall. With her poor little legs shaking quite a bit, she pressed on and before she knew it she was at the platform! She was so proud of herself and I could not have been more proud.
Hopefully, this little victory will give her the confidence to continue facing her fears and overcoming them.
Do you have a child(ren) that are afraid? What are some things you do to teach them to be fearless?
March 24, 2014
Well, this past week was week #2 of painting. I didn't think our paint job would be that difficult but I guess it is more so than I imagined.
These painters are unlike any other painters I've witnessed. They actually tape and cover everything (which is actually quite nice because our last house had overspray on the walls and kitchen backsplash and it wasn't pretty).
Once the stained cabinets were finished and dry, they covered them in plastic so not to get paint on them when they painted the trim and other cabinets. Now that all the cabinets and trim are stained/painted, they have covered it all so there will be no overspray on them from when the walls are painted. All the work going in to protecting the stuff that has already been painted has taken twice as long as it does to paint but you will hear no complaints from me. It will be done right and that's exactly how I want it.
I did end up going with a total of 5 colors. Oops. Totally not what I originally planned but I have no regrets. For our cabinets I chose one stain color and one paint color and then I chose 3 shades of gray for the walls….not 50 because well, that would just be ridiculous (see what I did there? Ha!) Sorry, couldn't help myself.
Anyway, I don't have pictures of any of the wall colors yet (that's happening this week) but since I know that everyone always wants to see pictures, here you go!
Paint is supposed to be done by Thursday of this week. I've been told they need 30 days from paint to finish everything so if that's the case, we are in the home stretch!
If you would, please pray for no delays these next 30 days. Although we are officially in Spring (which means storms), I really hope to be back in our home and close to our storm shelter before May, which is typically when our storm season hits it's peak.
March 15, 2014
We started off our thirtieth week of rebuilding with quite a scare…
On Monday we had a little bit of a scare with a fire. My grandpa (who lives next door to us) had sold some scrap metal and the guy who bought it was using a torch cutter to cut it up on an extremely windy day no less. What was he thinking?!?! Anyway, long story short, he caught the grass on fire and the wind quickly swept it across my grandparents back yard and into ours. The fire came within about 20 feet of our house (WAY to close for my comfort). Thank goodness the closest fire department is only a mile away and they were there within minutes.
Also on Monday they added the stone bases to the columns on our front porch and we now have a mailbox! On Wednesday they installed our septic system.
So we were told the paint would begin two weeks ago but after over a week of waiting, they finally got started last Saturday when they began the prep work
The first thing they do is stain so they said they were waiting on me to pick and approve a stain color when in reality, I knew and had told them the color I wanted so I was actually waiting for them to get it right. After going back and forth a few times, they finally got the color I had asked for weeks ago.
They finally started staining on Tuesday and I am in love with the color!
They did get a little stain happy though and stained the master closet and my craft room cabinets which are supposed to be painted white. No worries though, they're going to fix it.
By the end of the week they started priming all the trim and cabinets that will be painted white. They are also working today. As of yesterday they had a little over half of the house primed so hopefully they'll get the rest primed today so they can start painting on Monday. My hopes are that they'll be done mid next week so that tile and countertops can be installed.
Other than the exterior paint, weather should not be a factor from here on out. We have storms forecasted for today but the rest of this week is supposed to be clear.
March 13, 2014
It is no secret that I'm not a fan of apartment living.
This past week or so, building a house has got me down. Things have happened that have just taken the fun out of it and I'm to the point where I'm just done. I've even decided not to go to the house unless I know there is something new to see.
So, instead of focusing on the negative, I'm going to focus on the things I have to look forward to when we move home.
Having our own space. We are so cramped and on top of each other in the apartment. In the new house we will each have our own space. I will have my dream kitchen and craft room. JMac will have his metal building and his theatre room. The girls will have their room and a play room….and a huge 5 acre yard where they can run until their little hearts' content.
Peace and quiet. There will be no sounds of footsteps or furniture moving above us. We will not hear people yelling outside our door. The only sounds we will hear will be airplanes passing over (we live near an airport), an occasional neigh of a horse(es) and if we are outside at night, the howl of coyotes (just for the record, I am not at all a fan of this sound).
A kitchen big enough to move around in. When I am cooking in our tiny apartment kitchen, I dream about my new kitchen and the days that I will be preparing meals and baking with my girls, family gatherings where everyone congregates around the island while I cook and just preparing everyday meals for my little family. I'm pretty sure the kitchen is going to be my favorite room in the house. I expect that I will spend the majority of my days there (by choice, of course). I spent months researching and planning my kitchen and I cannot wait to put it to use!
Storage. We might have gone a teeny bit over budget on cabinetry in the new house. Okay, it was a little more than a teeny bit but there will be no excuse for anything to not have a place. If we run out of storage space, then it's time to purge. If I've learned anything after surviving two tornadoes (the weather kind, not the twin toddler kind) and living in an apartment, it's that less IS more.
A pantry. I did not have a pantry in our house before and I don't really have a pantry in this apartment so to have a pantry with enough room to store ALL of our food and then some just makes me giddy.
A sink sprayer. It's sometimes the little things, isn't it? I have somehow managed to go without a sink sprayer in our apartment kitchen, though I can't tell you enough how much I miss having one. Who doesn't put sink sprayers in kitchen sinks?!
Most of all, I'm looking forward to having my home back. Though it's a little different than it was before, it's still the same. It's our home.
Even the girls seem to know that it's home….they are starting to understand. When we go to check on the progress, they have started throwing fits and crying when we tell them it's time to go. And when we pull into the apartment complex, one or both girls will again start to cry and protest. It breaks my heart but I tell them that one day soon, we will be home.
March 12, 2014
This was supposed to post yesterday but since I never know what day it is, I accidentally posted it for next week. So, I'm posting it today. :)
Last Friday, I had dinner with my best friend and all the way home I kept thinking how thankful I was to have her in my life.
God knew what He was doing when He planned for our paths cross.
We met our freshman year of college. She lived across the hall from me. We didn't know each other very well until we pledged together. Then at the end of our freshman year, we were kind of forced together when our respective roommates decided to room with other people and then devised a plan to have her and I room together our sophomore year. It was kind of like a blind roomie set up (with the blind part being that we had no idea what our roommates were up to).
Lucky for me, we clicked and rooming together was just the beginning of our lifelong friendship. We have many, many stories from our years of friendship….some I may some day share here and some that only she and I will ever know. We've been through many ups and downs together…always there for each other through them all. Some days I think I know her better than I know my own husband (she actually set me up with JMac…someday I'll share that story too).
Anyway, we had this dinner planned for almost a month and it couldn't have come at a better time. I had a rough week last week and just needed a beak and to be able to vent with no criticisms, judgment, or unsolicited advice. We do that for each other….we just listen.
She just finished building her house and moved in a couple weeks ago. When she told me they were going to sell their house and build a new one I was so excited for her. Little did I know that God had plans for me to also build a house at the same time. It's funny how He does that. Anyway, it's been nice to have both of us going through the process at the same time. Even though the circumstances were different, there have been many parallels that have helped us to understand what the other is going through.
I felt so much better after our night out.
She's the positive light in my storms of negativity.
She's like my soul mate but not. She's my soul sister.
March 10, 2014
I am back at it this week with the meal planning. It's so hard being consistent right now with everything that's going on but it's good for me to do this because on the days where I don't know what day it is (which is most days) I don't have to think about what to make. I just look at the menu!
I'm also still going with easy meals. Don't be fooled by some of the things on the menu because they're most likely going to be prepared from a box or bag. ;)
Oh and I also added Saturday and Sunday to the menu so now you have 7 days worth of ideas for your own meal planning!
What's on your menu for this week?